February 2012
69 posts
I am really trying to figure out a way to say a lot of things that I just don’t seem to have the words for these days.
[1] I want to tell you how fucking cool and hilarious and cute I think you are, and that I’ve always thought that, and that when I gave you my number I meant for you to use it. I wasn’t rejecting you, so pick up the ball now and let’s get a move on, shall...
I thought I was getting a little better at letting my guard down and letting people get close to me. Then he went and gave me what felt like an emotional punch in the gut and I’m back to thinking that no one, no one is worth trusting. I should never have let him or anyone get that close.
Right?
I’m better alone.
A List of Positive Things
Doctor’s orders.
[1] I’ve found one real, true, genuine friend here. I’m not saying she’s my best friend or that it’ll last forever but for right now, I trust her more than anyone else here and she’ll help me through anything, as I will do for her. She’s also the first real friend I’ve had with similar goals in entertainment, and having someone to...
I am sick to my stomach with how much I hate him, I hate him, I hate him. I hate him for forgetting me and I hate him for being the only boy who’s ever stood me up, much less the only one I’d ever let get away with it. I needed this night, you absolute asshole, I needed this to get away from you, to move on to something better, something maybe even real, and you took it from me! You...
Today I am missing the summer.
I miss the summer but in an anticipatory way - I don’t miss last summer, I miss this summer. I miss feeling alone and uninfluenced and unconstrained and free to behave wildly and peacefully and positively and warm. I don’t like that I feel pressed upon by the things around me here, like the moments I take for myself are a reaction to those which I have no choice about. And I hate...
maybe, maybe things are beginning to look up
I found out today that I got the RA position I wanted in the off-campus apartment I wanted, too, and that’s positively wonderful because of the obvious reasons but I’m also proud of myself because I did it, I did it and I didn’t think I could. I got an A- on my very first philosophy paper after getting two Cs on other papers and starting to think that maybe I’m not cut out...
I'm taking control of my life again!
My, my, my, does this feel alright.
People like to call me bitch like it’s funny. But I’m not, and it’s not. The truth is, people don’t understand me because I don’t attach. I don’t take life seriously and the fact that I can do that with confidence scares them, I think. The truth is, I’m too laid back to care about what kinds of reactions the things I say will get, so I just say things how...
roryflanagay:
Hello, I would like someone to do relationshipy things with please
| I just need some time to recover. I’ve been awfully low for an awfully long time.
| I totally lost sight of the fact that things can be better than this. I can feel better than this. I can do better than this. I can want better than this. I can be better than this.
Patti Smith: Camera Solo →
These are gorgeous. Here’s to beautiful things on Valentine’s Day.
We Are Young (ft.Janelle Monáe)
| I’m not even going to attempt this day. I have a lot I want to say but I got three hours of sleep and have been awake for twenty hours since, so my thoughts aren’t going to be worth very much. I’ll try to recap today tomorrow. Until then, good night, lovely world!
christianlaffey asked: What? Your hair is red? When did this happen?
fromblueeyes asked: so today in my spanish class we had to talk about our best friends....i said she goes to school in nueva york and she has blond hair and brown eyes and people have asked us if we're sisters even though we don't really look a lot alike, and we don't get into fights because we get along really well and we hug when we see each other. gotta love reflexive verbs.... :)
lovin’ a music man ain’t always what it’s s’posed to be.
yesterday I went home just for the game and to see my mom and my dog and my brothers and my dad but i see him all the time anyway. point is, i asked permission to get a drink before i could even realize what was happening. i think that made them really sad.
